HOMEBREW GIRL TUTORIAL by Nora Hikari
HOMEBREW GIRL TUTORIAL
1. Low Bronze Girl Main
You'll develop a prodigious
obsession with artificiality,
predictably, and it manifests as a
A white-knuckled infatuation with
robotgirl threads on /d/,
two undergrad theses on social construction
the bit-crushed snap
of nightcore and hyperpop.
Ironically, there's such a thing as reality sickness.
It’s drugs, then. Weed and molly
and watered down Everclear
and midnight Twitch streams
and climbing SR in Overwatch
and a few dozen scars.
A vicarious Tracer skin for every occasion.
2. Battlestation Selfie Thread
You wish it wasn't written all over your face
that you end your 3 AMs
building yourself through eBay auctions
but nothing says "homebrew"
like a knowledge of 2010s chan memes and not
knowing how to braid your hair.
You like to give your computers girl’s names.
You like to leave them naked and gutted
on a pile of textbooks. This is a self portrait.
The hard insides everywhere,
built for performance, a flippancy with aesthetic
and disembowelment as a maximization of airflow.
It's the nature of humanity to try to replicate itself,
even without a body.
You don't need to feel so guilty about this.
Nora Hikari is an Asian-American trans lesbian based in Philadelphia. Her work has appeared in Small Craft Warnings, Feral Journal, and Visibility Magazine, among others, and her poem Deer-to-Fish Transition Timeline has been nominated for the Best of the Net award.